Discouragement

Ok, I'm feeling discouraged today. Just downright Negative Nancy discouraged. I gave my body 4 days to recuperate from the torture that I put it through. All I did was Zumba and yoga. I didn't get on a treadmill lest I go flying off the back of it and crash into the guard rails. So, I went to get on the treadmill again, gotta get back up on that horse after ya fall off of it, and I got through a little over a mile when my ankle started hurting. Then, my knee started hurting, then my hip... did I mention that this is the knee that I tore my ACL in a few years back.... and so forth and so on until I could barely put one foot in front of the other again.
What in the hell have I done to myself???? Have I set myself back, or am I just a wuss? I'm leaning towards wuss, actually. I didn't really want to run today, and so I came up with lots of excuses to stop and not push through. Although, if you really are injured, you shouldn't run on an injury.
So, I came home and started thinking about WHY I don't want to run. I never came up with a good answer, but I DID realize something else. I don't want to stop running. I don't want to stop feeling good about my choices, my body, and my health. I don't want to stop feeling that sense of accomplishment when I hit a goal for time or distance. I don't want to stop sweating and pushing my body past what I ever thought I could possibly do. I don't want to stop. That's the bottom line. I like how I feel about myself when I run and make healthy choices for myself. So, I'm going to suck it up, put on my big girl undies, lace up my tennis shoes, and get back on the treadmill. Wish me luck and send me good vibes. I'm going to push through this and surprise even myself.